In the time I have been away from my blog of the journey I have been on! I turned 43, got remarried, on divorce #2. Can you say the marriage crashed and burned 0 to 60 in 8 weeks?
While I found my faith again, he lost his. Oh the lessons learned there. It ended up being a good thing. No, really it did!
Hard to imagine but It was a blessing in the middle of one big heartbreak. Not in the way of love lost like you think. I am actually good on that part. Looking back that tells me something. It was not love. More the fear of growing old alone.
In the midst of it all a few dreams came true.Took my kids minus the oldest 😦 on a cross country trip. I finally made it to California. 🙂 from Oceanside to Sacramento and everywhere in between!!
I finally walked the Santa Monica Pier, swam in the pacific ocean on the 4th of July. Caught a few Long Beach and L.A. sunsets. Caught an earth quake, a waterspout, mudslide from heavy rains. Before that it was a massive fire that came over the highway just after we came through!
Guess what? He wasn’t there it was just me with my 3 kids and his 2 boys! Hindsight is powerful. I was busy being mom and he was most often out of the picture. Even still…….
Man I loved Cali !!! Its nothing like Florida that’s for sure!
Coming back home to Jax from L.A. was the hardest thing I ever had to do. Amazing as it sounds there were crosses everywhere we went. On mountains, billboards, t-shirts..you name it. The most prolific was a shadow of a cross on the bus window from the sun. God has a way of saying “my child this journey you must go but know I am with you every step of the way.”
In the 13 months we have been back amazing things happened. First I learned to love myself unlike I never had before. I learned self value as a woman and as a mother. I learned of the strength I never thought I could possiably ever have. But, I do!!!!
I had nothing….now I have a beautiful home, a car, and I alone provide for and take care of my kids! I recently got licenced to sell insurance and annuities. This new job is a whole new chapter in my life to make my kids and my dreams come true!
If I can be one thing to even one person bored enough to have read this far 😉 I pray I have given you HOPE💜
Trust me when I say if you truly believe and open your heart to God, let him show you the way no matter how bad it breaks your heart, or pains your body, keep your faith, never give up hope he will provide. Trust in God and he will reward you for your faith and love. I am proof of that.
I still have quite a journey left to travel in this world. I know God and Jesus will never be far from me because they live in my heart.
Life is not fair, and the road we must travel is one hazard after another with each step we take these days. Hold tight to those you love, give them love and hope. Teach them how to be brave, to be strong to face what comes their way, and the power of faith……
Never lose faith in God, Nor hope in humanity or all will be lost…….
Peace, love, and sunshine to you all….✌💜🌞